Overwhelmed and Uninspired

Overwhelmed and uninspired… how often do these feelings hit you? I can tell you most of the summer here on the farm we have been feeling a hefty amount of overwhelming and uninspired feelings. Nearly every project, from simple, to well planned-complex, was met with road blocks and doubled the amount of time to complete. And after time that begins to beat on your creative soul. Now, don’t get me wrong, we have been enjoying our summer here on the farm, getting our farm roots established, setting an area for the garden, keeping bee’s, and of course getting our Grace… but that jump in heads first, building furniture, or turning candles, just has not been anything I can build an appetite for.

Earlier in the month, the news was peppered with the horrific news that a V-22 Osprey crashed, and declared three Marines dead. This hits home greatly for our household… 2010 that same aircraft, same location, same expeditionary unit, I was out there doing the same thing… and you put the dangers and risk in the back of your mind of what you are actually doing while you are deployed. The reason I bring this up, is any military person will agree that when you are put in places that isn’t home, like that of being deployed or even boot camp, everyone sits there and imagines the first thing you would do (typically eat) when you get back… You dream… and you look forward to any hardship or pain in the butt choir you need to do, because whatever it was, was better than where and what you were doing. I remember back in 2010, dreaming one day of being a civilian again, back in Michigan, living on a farm, working from sunrise to sunset, and loving it. This crash flooded those memories of being back in the military, and I had to mentally slap myself, and look around at what I am taking for granted. That, much more in-shape, young dreamer is living that dream now, and if he could look forward into today, he would laugh at what I have allowed to overwhelm me… I know those Marines, Sailors, and all other military branches that are forward deployed are dreaming of that dream life, like one day owning and running a farm, working from sunrise to sunset, and most importantly coming home every night.

I can say, this shock into reality has sparked a creative bug in both LMB and myself. We are ready to re-organize our blog life, especially on this site, and hope to share and connect more with everyone out there, that for some reason likes to swing by our little blogs to see what we are up to. I can say we are still a bit overwhelmed, but we are re-inspired again, and we are so happy for everyone out there in our life that encourage us and support us on our journey, in all of its avenues.

My tip for those that find themselves in this type of situation is to, accept it and you need to let it run its course. Take your time to find your inspiration, forcing it, I found only prolong these feelings. And also, know that everyone (most likely) goes through these stints… You don’t have to be creative and on the ball– all the time. Before I sign off… I want to take a moment to encourage everyone to take a second to think about and pray for those Marines, Lt. Benjamin R. Cross, Corporal Nathaniel F. Ordway, and Private First Class Ruben P. Velasco, and all of our service members that are out in places they don’t want to be, dreaming of living a life that you may be living. I thank you, and as always Give Grace.